I have still not made use of this Blog as originally intended, but I am internally working on it! Though I often struggle and fight for clarity, I also resist, as I believe we all do! There is the need for truth, but also the teachings and training, both direct and indirect, of lies and lying! As with most people I ilike my personal deceptions sometimes and writing on the Blog actualizes thought and feelings, validating them and bringing deeper and greater levels of awareness!
I had an interesting talk today with a friend where I spoke of my desire to Blog and her reaction was one of shock and fear, saying to me that , 'you don't want all that personal information out there for the world to see! I responded by saying, why yes I do, sometimes in the most casual of conversations and sharing I will express wisdom that others learn from and I want people to see that, learn from it and grow! I realized later that the Blog is also a way of facing fear and through facing it healing it and getting past the fears that limit me in my life, as well as the fact that expression brings with it greater awareness and understandings through the validation of self by actualized thought and feeling!
Though I see these things, I also run from them, but have learned that the running is sometimes just a form of resting because we are not always in touch with our needs and rest can be an unfulfilled need! I decided to name this Blog entry 'The need to be', because whether it is the pursuit of truth and becoming or the need to rest and slow down, it is all a part of being! One of the great keys to growth is learning to honor the many levels of being, allowing each thing to have its own integrity and let it be what it is. While at the same time learning when to go against ones own needs, in order to fulfill ones growth and achieve ones potential!