For the first time in my life I have a memory that tops my childhood memories of Christmas! Much to my surprise, on Christmas day I got an email message telling me I had a new message on this dating website, I have no memory of ever signing up for. The common popular theory is that some of these sites sell your information to other sites, they make a profile for you based on the info they have received and when you get a message, they reel you in as a customer! It is possible, but I do not really know how it works, I just have no memory of it and there are a lot of explanations for that.
Christmas day I hesitantly go to the website to check what is usually a disappointing message and find a warm greeting from an unknown Man! Much to my delight he is personable, interested and he gives me a name, which is a real shocker! I write back in delight and enjoyment and he answers we go back and forth for the day having a grand old time and the jolliest, happiest Christmas I can remember, during which feelings start to rise. Now this is where the world gets skeptical and they all start to tell you to be careful, or question how can you feel something for person over a computer! In the mean time I am falling in love.
Talk to anyone who knows me and they will tell you i fall in love to easily and to often. Ask me and I will admit it, I know I am a very lonely man with a near desperate need for love, I get it, but it has never made me skeptical. No one knows how the Universe will answer your dreams or when and where love will come from, close your heart and you may live safe, but how much won't you live.
So much of our lives are built on the idea of saving ourselves from pain, yet pain is part of life and often we are hurting from the very walls that protect us, so are they really protecting us, if we are in pain behind the walls? The games of love can be hard enough, but the games we play to stay out of love and out of pain are exhausting and overbearing, I say gear up, strengthen yourself, live your life survive the pain and grow with each encounter, you will have to face your limitations and life lessons one way or another. I know this intimately, I have just lived through two years of hell with Spirit ever by my side saying this is what will happen if you don't choose to or can't deal with it. Lying in a Nursing Home bed unable to walk because my feet have been operated on, with nothing available to me but inner reflection, introspection or thought and feeling. And now sitting here in a warm apartment typing as honestly as I can a year later!
I wish I could en capsule all I saw, felt and learned, which I never would have gone into so deeply or seen so clearly if i had not lived it myself. So there I sit on Christmas day feeling feelings of Love, a deep and extraordinary Love, which I know I cannot ignore and pay all the more attention to because of my psychological and Intuitive paths. I have learned to try to live my life uncensored, so I can really know or come close to knowing what is really going on inside of me and see who I am, not just who I want to be! Self manipulation and behavioral modification lead to living lies, not truth. So I decide to own up to what i am feeling and shock of shocks he Thanks me for being so open and says the same things back. Each email becomes more and more like reading a book I wrote and the most perfect man is unfolding or constructing himself, before my eyes and my heart is lost, happily, gratefully, but lost all the same, or found depending on how you intend to look at it.
Now it is January 3 2012 and we are still talking twenty times a day and yes we have already passed through some painful episodes, but we are surviving! There can be no immediate answer here just process until we get to look back one day, hand in hand or long since parted and see the truth in retrospect! For now I have met the great love of my life, well I have not yet physically met him. but that is the next step! So how can one fall in love over a computer? If you are wise, very cautiously, never forgetting that even when you know someone physically, love is tricky. It brings out the best and the worst in people, usually at the same time!
Look at it this way, the computer provides a focus for connection, how is it i am able to do readings over the computer? The computer simply provides a focal point, the life lessons don't change, you don't become less empathetic, past lives remain the same. No it is not to be completely trusted, what part of loving and subjective reality is, just be ready to learn about yourself, because that ultimately is what love is all about, self discovery and awareness!
I am not sure what else I want to say about this. His name is David Marc and if you want to see him send me an email and I will show you his picture and you are welcome to let me know any intuitions you get about this. I have already had every intuitive in my life check him out and so far all the feed back is quite positive, this is it, I think I have found a life partner! I believe in this man and I have not yet shared all the experiences that I have had with him.