It is Sunday Morning and there are several things on my mind, one is that i have no help with this website and try as I may to catch the typing errors some slip through, I do not yet have an editors eye never having been properly trained in grammar and such as I grew up, I was always bad at grammar, in any language! Odd I should be writing so much now and that 'Spirit Of The Light says my future is in books! Hmm! It also, to me, strange that with this blog I have yet to directly discuss anything Psychic or Spiritual except process, but only from the point if view of process, which others have already found valuable, but it is still a pet peeve of mine. I find myself wondering how much that has to do with why I have so few friends, I am loved by many people, but it is very rare for anyone to just call to chat because they desire my company.
1 experience a great deal of loneliness and have very little social life, it is a driving force in my life, both fortunately and unfortunately. Fortunately, because it has driven me to many kevkes of discovery, Unfortunately because it can be a gripping negative experience diminishing ones experience of life itself.
But today is a touch nerve wracking as it is a day of experimenting, today i am going to, for the first time attempt a Trance channeling over the telephone. Nothing should be any different except the holding up of the phone which brings the intrusion of the twentieth century into the conceptual mind which is usually not there and can be easily ignored, I do such things with great care so as not to put myself in any danger. Channeling can e quite dangerous really, if the proper steps are not taken to guide and protect the process. Just because someone is in Spirit or drives a Flying Saucer doesn't mean they are of benevolent intnetions. To many people attempt to use their mediumship without any knowledge or guidance of any kind, rarely does it work out well, except in rare cases where there is soul agreement to do it and then spirit Of The Light becomes responsible for jobs that otherwise belong to us! So, to the joy of Spirit
I w ill do my prayer work today and make sure i am n a secured space and preferably innocent state of consciousness. Then i have booked a session with a client i have worked with many times before, now what cold possibly be nerve wracking about that. well all that work took place before my illness which took with it a great deal of my confidence, I have gotten to know this woman very well and cannot imagine what I have to say to her! If the gift is real I will have new things to say of interest and if not maybe, in spite of years of validation, I am nor for real. It is funny and strange how all the validation in the world will only have just so much impact, but one little negative possibility can be devastating! Human Beings are quarky! We will tear ourselves down over one little thing, but only be willing to build a house of cards out of all our positive , supportive experiences! This is such a common phenomenon it is almost silly, but the impact an be devastating and deliberately used to be such.
This is a very old truth that repeats itself in Human psychology over and over again, at so many levels. We are so hesitant to take in our validation and so ready to devastate ourselves with anything that goes wrong. Once you see this in yourself you can see how at odds it puts you with reality itself and if you are at odds with reality you are at odds with self trust. The ultimate validation of who we are is in 'THAT' we exist, not what we do in existence. If that premise has no power for you then everything else will be off balance and you weaken your inner infrastructure. That basic weakness or strength changes the way you can or cannot build the rest of your character. This is a part of Human understanding that escapes, far to many people. You must bring healing and change into the very fundamental ideas of who you are or else the out of balance ideas alive within you will always have an influence and control over who you are experiencing yourself as being. I will let you know how the sessions turn out, it sure would help me return to confidence if I can make these achievements true!