As I have begun to compile this website, as with many new ventures, I find that anything remotely relayed to my fears and limitations coming up in my life and communications. It creates the need in one to run and hide instead of putting oneself out there! I am as flawed a Human being as anyone, but i am trying. Should our flaws keep us from moving forward, absolutely not, can we learn and grow, YES!
A part of me wants to stop right there and go no further, but that would be choosing from fear and creating a limitation for myself and i won't do that when i can stop myself from doing it. The point is growth and growth requires forward motion. It is hard to transcend the beliefs formed by negative life lessons, yet that is why we are all here is it not? Right now I am in a great deal of emotiomal pain and so I do not know how deeply into this I can get and or am willing to go.
I asked others to share their comments with me, about the website and they are and that is a good thing. Unfortunately, then objecting if i respond, saying I am in reaction and getting defensive. Not my intention, but i am a Human Being putting myself in a visible unsafe position. Other then regular introspection as well as taking into account what others are saying, I do not know how to combat spontaneous expression of human insecurity. Sometimes the unintended will express itself no matter how careful you are! Plus, how is it possible to tell the difference between what you are saying and intending and how it will be heard and accepted. I am doing my best and my best is pretty good, I think? If I weren't so emotional at the moment i would call on Spirit and ask them to speak on this to me and for me. All I know how to do is continue to communicate until everyone understands everyone else. That can be hard, but worth it in the end!